Wednesday, April 11

Food
Breakfast: Balance bar (200 calories)
Morning: nothing (0 calories)
Lunch: Spaghetti with sauce (490 calories)
Afternoon: Luna bar, crackers with peanut butter (500 calories)
Dinner: Apple (80 calories)
Midnight: Cereal (160 calories)
Total: 1430

Training
Masters Swim, 25 minutes, 218 calories
Weight lifting, 45 minutes, 160 calories
Total: 2378

Summary
Yesterday was kind of a downer. I really didn't want to go to Masters Swim, but I figured, since it was my last day before tapering for UCSB, I probably should. I got out there and it just wasn't working; mentally, I really wasn't into it. Besides which, it was an IM workout, which I don't particularly like because my butterfly and back strokes are pretty bad, and it seems pointless to me to work so hard in areas that don't really apply to me. So I got out of the pool early, about 12:40, and skated home to eat lunch. I felt horrible, too, because I felt like I had wasted my time on junk meters. It was extra annoying, because I had considered skipping the workout anyway.

The rest of the day was pretty frustrating, too. I had trouble controlling myself when it came to food. Maybe I needed to ease up on myself a little, like I was trying too hard to regulate what I was eating. But I sort of felt tempted to eat because I was unhappy, or anxious. Normally, I don't have a problem with that. I eat when I'm bored, but not to make myself feel better. It's a frightening development for me.

All in all, not a great training day. But I need to be able to get over it when things don't go well, or as planned, and be able to face the next day ready to start fresh.